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i love willow, she is my best friend at college, i also like ponies and beluga with my gaylssssssssssss
im wearing my retainers
why are you lying
(Source: goodenough4u)
why are you lying
(Source: goodenough4u)
elo peeps dat jus follwed me, nice to see ya to see ya nice
Had the most amazing valentines with my baby, I love him to much
Still chuckling
back again after about 4/5 months, maybe more. Life was alright actually, now on the other hand, its not. I dont care who reads this and what they think of me but i have to put my feelings down in words. I’ve lost my best friend: my mum. Divorce, yay. Again. Shes become so selfish this time and has seemed to forget that she has a daughter, no more chats like i can tell her everything, its all about her now. She decides to leave me next year to go to wales which has made me cry pretty much every day, shes making me grow up to fast, making me worry about me future even though its over a year away! On the other hand, i hate being at home, its shit, i feel like im being punished for something that my mum made the mistake in doing (marrying my step dad) i need to get away and stay away. Family problems, it goes on…
Ben. Well ben, basically im always neglected by him, he never texts me back, rarely answers my phone calls, and to top it all off hes going to zante for 10 days in august which i am getting ultra paranoid about, i keep shaking and crying im getting so worked up, two types of therapy im going for to help me sort my abnormal freak behaviour out, im beyond a freak with me over protective and i am going to drive him away. Hypnotherapy, and CBT. two types of therapy that i doubt very many 16 year olds have to go through, i want my life to last with ben, i want to be with him, but who knows what will happen, and with the way i am, if we were to break up, i would just be a mess. a complete mess. I cried like crazy today, ive made such an improvement with the suicidal shit and now im scared it will all come back again. I cant be dealing with that aswell, I need at least a months holiday, to get away from everything and everyone. I wish ben would realise that its normal to speak to your girlfriend, but i guess not.
My depressed life on a constant.
later
Following my best friends Tumblr. She’s happy, I’m happy. I love you Sophia!
Done and dusted with Ben. See ya later pal! Ahhhh so relieved i had the strength to do that <3 <3
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jifjkdgmkfd;nklg kjsnds, i hate everything again. its amazing how much i can hate you but love you. i hate you at the moment. try texting back thats a start to show you care. not be so fucking shit in life and not do anything and that your such a fucking lazy shit that you cant even move your fingers to text. Y GET JEALOUS. why am i so jealous of like the stupidest things. like you commented on a girls status. now i hate you. i swear im a freak. just whatever. whats the point. bye.
